A month ago if you asked me if my number one priority was to lose fat because of the way I look I would have told you yes. I have lived in and loathed my body as far back as third grade. That’s a long time. It’s also a long time to go on and off diets, analyze every angle in the mirror, do crazy calorie restrictive diets paired with a gazillion hours of cardio and weights. It’s insane. It’s sad. And the times when I’ve been smaller or larger was I ever happy? Was it ever enough? No. There was always another tweak, another pound, another girl who looked better than me. Yet I never realized this no win cylce I put myself in. Until now.
For the last few months I’ve been having a fitness/health love affair with a man named Jason Seib. He is a first rate trainer and author of a book called the Paleo Coach. Among a ton of other really amazing things, he talks about goals. In particular how, if your goal is completely based on aesthetics, you will never be happy. Because it’s never enough. And I think he’s onto something because I’ve seen it in this industry. I’ve seen it in myself.
I started to ask myself what it is that I want, really, really want from my fitness and nutritional choices. The answer is pretty simple. I want, above all, to be healthy. I want to be functionally strong, free of inflammation and pain, mentally and emotionally balanced. And I want it to continue throughout my life. If, along the way, I lose some body fat and gain some muscle great! It’s a bonus. Seib refers to this as “healthy by choice, hot by accident”. If the focus shifts, if the choices are made from a place that tells me I deserve to be my healthiest self than the aesthetics will usually follow. But they are completely secondary. A side effect.
So over the last month I’ve made some pretty significant changes in the way I exercise and I’m finally being honest with myself about my nutrition. I’m meditating daily and walking almost every day . I’m shifting my perspective and no longer looking at my body with loathing. It’s a pretty amazing flippin’ thing, my body – not for the way it looks but for what it can do. I want it to keep doing those things and become even better. My goal? My best healthy self. Which is so much more than to fit into a dress that will be out of style next year.
See you in class and in the studio.